I apologize to all of you that actually do read my weblogs for not posting in a while but honestly most of you couldn't give a shit, so thats why i haven't worried about it. Just lettin everyone know that my Grandmother has been in the hospital for 3 days now. I'm very sick , jobless, and extremely depressed. Well hopefully all of the invisible people who read this will know whats going on in my life now and enjoy it. Safety I find myself backed up against a wall a wall i made to protect me to keep all that harmed away ahead of me i see pain and torment i push on my wall with all my might searching for a way in to be safe but my wall will not give pain and torment shoot their sorrow tipped arrows at me i get hit with some and feel myself being pushed towards them i look around unbelieving that i was closer only to find that my safety, my protection, my wall had grown stronger it grew thicker to protect its contents and pushed me closer to what i needed protection from I cursed and beat on the wall while the arrows struck me to the core but my wall did not budge but only grew more and forced me farther away i felt more sorrow beat into me i threw myself against my wall, my safety, my protection i threw myself against my wall and slid to the ground overcome by sorrow now here i weep, pain and torment standing over me my body festering with sorrow now here i weep ~Chad~ | 
